I'm standing on the edge of the cliff, just deciding either to fall back on solid ground or deep down under. This feeling sucks long time and i hate to feel like that. Where's my brains, tday i doubt myself for having any. Perhaps it was the right choice or maybe not. This has been bugging me since 6 uhh this is horrible, i can't imagine more. I can dwell over things for days and the worst thing is i find myself waking up in the morning and sitting on the bed thinking bout how stupid i am. Things happens and i always make wrong decisions. I rejected a 8 day job which ends before i restart a new sem and i can easily earn $4XX in a 9-5 job but i rejected it cause this thurs & fri's two good friend's birthday & all my old friends are having gatherings, friends who i've rarely had time to met them. Oh fuck.